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12:20pm 19/11/2009
  http://chaospet.com/2009/10/05/146-causal-paradox/  
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02:01pm 04/11/2009
 
...We are married to a loving God who gave His life so we could live; but He is also "a consuming fire, a jealous God" (Deuteronomy 4:24).  When we allow our heart to become attracted to the things of this world or controlled by its set of values, we become an adulterous bride; "Don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God?" (James 4:4).

Many of our discussions of what is "acceptable" behavior for the bride of Christ, miss the true essence of our relationship.  We are to be passionately in love!  Our greatest desire should be to do those things which please the Bridegroom, not to cause Him grief as we live on the cold edge of what is "allowable."  Everything is allowable!  But what are the things which properly express our love?

-Steve Troxel
God's Daily Word Ministries

This is probably the most misunderstood, and easily misconstrued concept out there.  It just feels wierd having it drilled in me, yet again.  

To love the world is harder than it seems. 
 
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Blue Moon Bistro   
02:36pm 03/11/2009
 

Every Wednesday Ivy TEch's culinary program sells food, and this is what is on the list for this week!  I haven't had onion rings forever! 

Roast Beef on Swiss    $3.50
Thin slices of tender roast beef smothered with portabella mushrooms, creamy Swiss
cheese sauce served with a side of horseradish sauce and your choice of beer
battered onion rings or crispy golden French fries.
Add a side of baked beans or creamy coleslaw to make it a meal.

Breaded Pork Tenderloin $3.50
A Hoosier favorite, breaded and deep fried, served with slices of red onion, ripe
red tomato, leaf lettuce and pickle slices, mayo and mustard served on the side  and
your choice of beer battered onion rings or crispy golden French fries.
Add a side of baked beans or creamy coleslaw to make it a meal.

Whole Wheat Veggie Wraps $2.50
Spring mix, red onion, grilled portabella mushrooms, ripe red tomatoes, and red and
yellow roasted bell pepper, provolone cheese and a pesto flavored mayonnaise, served
with a side of Apple Waldorf Salad.

Loaded Baked Potato Soup $1.75
A rich, creamy bowl of comfort made with hearty potatoes, onion, celery, and
garnished with cheddar cheese, crispy bacon, and fresh chives.

Ala Carte Items Available
Blue Moon House Salad with choice of dressing $2.25
Baked Beans $.50
Creamy Coleslaw $.50
Apple Waldorf salad $.75
Crispy Golden French Fries $1.25
Beer Battered Onion Rings $1.50

Bakery Items Available
M&M cookies $.25
Chocolate Chip Cookies $.25
Sugar Cookies $.25
Snickerdoodles $.25
Carrot Cake with Cream Cheese Icing $1.00
Layered Mocha Cheesecake $1.50
Pumpkin Pie $1.00
Sugar Cream Pie $1.00
Cr?me Filled Chocolate Cupcakes $.50
Assorted Fresh Baked Breads 

 
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09:09am 29/10/2009
 
The destiny of man is not measured by material computations.  When great forces move around in the world we learn that we are spirits not animals.  ...and there is something going on in time and space and beyond time and space, which whether we like it or not spells duty. 

-Winston Churchill



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qXBswFfh6AY&feature=player_embedded

I want to make sweet love to Reagan!  Dead or not.

 
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Momma Mia   
09:32am 26/10/2009
 

Good music.

Plot: a girl wants to find out who her dad is before she gets married, so that she can discover her roots/figure out who she is….

…She doesn’t find out who her dad is…

Her mother slept with 3 different guys in the course of a year.

She doesn’t tell the guys that she’s pregnant. She raises the girl on her own, and had to work soooo hard!

These guys were decent, but they left HER…they didn’t know that she was pregnant.

But since they left her then she had every excuse to keep a big distance, because they were ‘mean’ to her.

I’m so sick of selfish parents I could puke.   

At the end of the movie the wife, who I don’t give care about at all, has one of the dads profess his undying love of 20 years, and they get married. I couldn’t get excited for her. And I felt sorry for him.

I will hate that movie with an undying passion for 20 years at which time I will watch it again and sing to the really good music.  Stupid movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@!@x21

 
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04:22am 24/10/2009
  Every sixty seconds you spend angry, upset or mad, is a full minute of happiness you'll never get back!



good!
 
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11:41pm 04/10/2009
 

I'm resting in a nook formed by the tree roots; friends and acquaintances are all around.  There's a gathering but I don't know why.  Its night out.

I see an astroid fall into the bed of shadows about 3-4 miles distance.   I forgot that I was out here to watch the stars fall.  This was huge!  I sit up from nook and look off in the distance, waiting...

The 'asteroid' shoots up into the air, darting at an angle, as if it richechetetd off the ground.   

Someone was following this asteroid.  I can't understand why/how they are/got on it so fast.   I don't even know how I saw them get on it. 

Then the marshmellow monster from Ghost Busters shoots out of the ground, following the 'asteroid' which turned into a spaceship in mid-air.

I jumped up from my spot and started shouting to everyone around me to take notice.  I remember wanting to laugh and scream out of terror simeltaneously....and then I woke up  *sigh* 

This could have been the coolest dream!  but it got smacked down by the stupid/irrelevant-in-so-many- different-perspectives- ghost buster reference.     

 

 
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10:20am 04/08/2009
 

'...if one is full of fear and worry he becomes tense and unable to relax.  The circulation becomes partially choked in certain areas, the tiny capillaries in the feet become choked with crystalline deposit formation, interfering with the circulation and the normal transference of the blood from the arteries to the veins which must take place at those terminals (i.e blood to the heart or kidneys).  The result of this is the tenderness we encounter when we contact those special reflexes in the feet.'
-Eunice D. Ingham

I finished with my last class in Reflexology last Thursday. 

What I like most about this type of treatment is that I can finally get some work done on myself, even though I have to do all the work myself  :(   Yes, I am flexible enough to reach my own feet.  :)

By doing work on myself I am actually learning to better treat the feet in general, on others. 

I had a headache everyday for the past week in the mornings.  I worked on my feet and, of course, about 20 minutes later I want to nap...but my headache had gone. 

I freaking love the idea of being able to feel relaxed and anew.  I'm tired most of the time now, but I'm wondering if thats because my body is trying to heal itself.  I am hoping that God will allow me this time to rejuve before the start of the next semester, when I am going to be craming a lot in.  I am hoping that by working my feet everyday before then that I can get a lot of the congestion out and start to feel better and more able all around.   I guess we'll see!

 
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12:22pm 23/07/2009
  Psalm 1:1-3
"Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on His Law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither."

This seems so obvious:  pray, meditate and you will find the most 'successful' path, through God and his way set out for you. ... 

I have seen God's work over and over again...I become confused and hopeless and disheartened, yet he always puts me back where I belong...  He is my friend...funny enough I thought I could only be honest with him and I was wrong, and He has shown me it so...scared of who I am and of who I could be, it is too much....

Fear is not a weakness, its a disease.  Fear shouldn't be in any of us.  We only have to fear if we seek on our own, then it is rightfully ours, and we deserve it. 

Thank you God for openning my eyes!!!  and let me not forget!
 
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Good times/ God times!   
06:17pm 28/06/2009
   I am in a really good mood right now!  This is the first day I've had to myself in I really don't know how long.  I always so stupidly busy that I start losing myself and the things that I love and the meer idea of how important it is to relax and take care of myself.

I massage people, and I love it like crazy, but I forget to take care of myself...there's a lady in FW that I am hoping who will take care of me. 

God has been so GOOD to me!  I can't even begin to really explain! 

Mike is in Indianapolis, which is a long way away... he's the friendliest guy I know.  He speaks his mind, for the most part, yet, is still kind.

He's pretty simplistic:  take care of the girl, compromise, take care of his family, work, be happy.

I talked to him awhile back about getting a motorcylce after college and just driving around for 1-2weeks to see the country side.  I explained to him that I want to see things that I have always wanted to see...to not be tied down...to just be open to anything...and plus its something to look forward to post-school...  the conversation carries on to how I like to have goals because then I don't really feel like I am worthy without them.

This got him thinking...he says to me like 20 minutes afterwards:  'maybe I should have a goal.' 

For crying out loud!  What have I done!  'I didn't mean him...I meant, that this is how I feel/ this is how I work.'  I have no desire to warp something that is okay already  : /

Anyway, he's in my life, and its really good!  I can't even believe it sometimes! 

Then there's college...I am going to start going full time August 24th.  I am taking 4 classes, going to work 20 hours (God willing) and be living in FW for that time.  I wasn't sure if I was going to get the fourth class, but all has worked out well!  Thank you God! 

I am going to miss Oy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  If I didn't move it would be because of her.   :(

My backyard is freaking amazing...I am growing peppers for the first time, and the strawberries were going feral for awhile there...all over the freaking place...its the best garden I have grown yet!

I am growing about 25 sunflowers in front of our private fence....I had to transplant my rose bushes and lavendar...only one bush is flourishing, and 5 of the lavendar...but I can't ask for much more, I guess.  

Everything is so beautiful and great!!!!  
 
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I wonder...   
06:47pm 02/06/2009
 
Terminator 2  Judgement Day

Here's my theory about that movie:
If Sarah and her son John Conner hadn't eliminated the terminator (Arnold) at the end then they might have changed the future, but instead they just prolonged the destiny that would eventually occur.

Here's why I think that:
The terminator, thru his interaction with John Conner, had learned to appreciate the love and affection that humans had. 

"I now understand why you cry."  -Terminator @ the end of the movie. (I"m actually not sure if this is the EXACT quote, but it gives the idea)

So, I believe that a new creation of high-tech cyber beings would be born thru this new chip, had this chip survived.
 
I think the only reason that the computers attacked in the first place was because all they saw from the humans was destruction and missed the joy and special connections of human life.  Humans didn't take the time to teach them anything else.  John Conner was a different story, though, because he showed the terminator what it was like to be a human, regardless of the need for emotion.

The machines, in a sense, are like children and will always remain so, in the sense that emotion and intellect combined are, anyway.  They don't know or really feel the reasons why they have to follow rules.  For instance, a child doesn't know why they have to apoligize after they hit someone...they just do what they are told.   A robot, with a 'mind' of its own, would emulate those around it, just as a child would, simply because rules are important to it. (Robots are like legalistic christians)   

So, theoritically, if we took the robots into our society...taught them the simple right and wrongs, the understanding that it is uncomfortable for a human to feel emotion, and that it is real and important to them would coexist in their 'frame of mind'/ chip.  The cyborgs would then begin to associate this significance of humans with the reasons for self-sacrifice, kindness, and servitude, and would, therefore, begin to emulate these actions, even though the emotions are non coexistent.

I say that by maintaining the terminator they could have introduced him to society and therefore started a revolution that involved humans being more respectful to these machines; these humans would interact enough with them to not avoid teaching them the rights and wrongs that even children need to know before they can make it in the world, devoid of being destructive.

On that note, perhaps the movie AI would be a better illustration of my meaning.
 
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Busyness   
10:19pm 18/05/2009
  I worked so hard today!  Its actually really fun to work really hard, because at the end of the day I can go down the list, marking off all of my 'acheivements.'  Thank you God for getting me through this day!

I like to keep really busy.......do I get bored?  nah!  I'm bored if I don't have something to do, though, but that is very rare, because I can find something to do if I am in my own quarters.  If I am somewhere out of realm, if I don't feel like I can get my hands dirty in some way then I start to either cause trouble or to go slightly insane in some way.

When home:  if I'm not cleaning the gutters, then I'm working in my garden.  If I'm not rearranging things, then I'm throwing things out.  If I'm not creating and improving something around the house then I am studying something interesting or thinking of how I can give myself 200 things to do instead of just 175 things to do for the week.   

Working really hard and keeping really busy is like my bane.  I hate it but its all that I know.  Its wierd.

Anyway, God knows what I need and I can only hope that I will be slowing down at some point.


I hate the 'White and Nerdy' song by Weird Al, btw.  I used to love that song :- /
 
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10:49am 08/05/2009
 
http://content.usatoday.net/dist/custom/gci/InsidePage.aspx?cId=indystar&sParam=30688123.story&source=nletter-news


This is unbelievable!!!
 
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02:43pm 03/05/2009
  He's back!!!!!   aaaah!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIkzQYns61Q
 
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A Forward I Received   
12:00am 03/05/2009
  I actually didn't finish reading past the colored part...I will seriously pay 5 dollars to the first person who reads this whole thing without vomiting.  FIVEhhh!!! DOLLers!!!




Being in LOVE
>
>             Think back
to when you met the person that you
> just knew would be the one.
>             Remember when you realized/admitted to yourself
> that you loved that person.
>
>             Now remember how much you wanted to act like
> you were in a movie, and yell to everyone in the football
> stadium 'I love
>             (fill in the name)!'
>             You told family and friends how perfect he or
> she was;
>             the person was just what you were looking
> for...
>
>             Well, I told THE LORD that I love Him today.
>
>             And He said to me, ' How much do you love
> me ?
>           
  You haven't told anyone how good I've
> been to you.
>             You haven't shared how perfect my love is.
>             You haven't spread the good news that I am
> always there to listen to your problems.

>             You haven't told your family how I helped
> you pay your bills when you didn't have a high paying
> job , or how I got you a better one.
>             You haven't shared with anyone how I took
> away that addiction that would have cost you not only your
> job, but also that man/woman that was just what you were
> looking for.
>             So how much do you really love me ?'
>
>             So............................
>             I said I would share with my friends and fam
> ily (for starters) just how wonderful , perfect ,
> understanding , patient , loving , unselfish , considerate
> and forgiving GOD really is.....
>
>             He has blessed me with a family that loves me
> and friends that I can confide in.
>
>             But even more than that, He has saved me from
> destruction I couldn't even
see coming.
>
>             He gave to me the peace of knowing Him, and He
> has never broken a promise.
>
>             Truly He is the best thing that has ever
> happened to me .
>
>             And I stand in my stadium today to tell all of
> you,
>             ' I DO LOVE THE LORD JESUS CHRIST WITH ALL
> OF MY HEART !'
 
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On Anger   
01:09am 26/04/2009
 


Anger comes in many different forms:
bitterness
wrath
envy
resentment
intolerance
revenge
hatred
jealousy
... 
Stripped of all the facade and fancy excuses for condoning anger...we are confronted with an ugly word---selfishness.  Although we love to excuse our weaknesses and justify them to ourselves as we nurse our grudges and indulge in angry, vengeful, bitter feelings, they are all motivated by selfishness.  When I am angry, it is because someone has violated my rights and I am interested in myself.  When I am bitter against someone, it is because they have done something against me, and again I come back to selfishness.  Vengeance is always inspired by selfishness.

...I confronted [a christian lady] with the fact of her ang[er].  ...she blurted out in..defense, "well you'd be angry too if you lived with a man who constantly ran roughshod over you and treated you like dirt!'  Admittedly, he was not treating her the way a Christian man should, but her reaction could not possibly be caused by generosity; instead it was...selfishness.  The more she indulged in her selfishness and let her anger predominate, the worse her husband treated her.

I confronted her with the fact that she had 2 problems. ...Your husband is one problem, but your attitude toward your husband is another.  Until you as a christian recognize your own sin of selfishness and look to God for a proper attitude, even in the face of these circumstances, you will continue to grieve the Holy Spirity of God. 

The change...was almost unbelievable...instead of using her husband as an excuse to indulge in anger, she began to treat her relationship to Jesus Christ more than the indulgence of her own selfishness. 

Instead of waiting for a change in her husband's behavior, she literally changed her husband's behavior by hers. 

Since love begets love and we reap what we so, it was not long before the husband began to respond with kindness. 

-Tim LaHaye

We are also letting the person who has hurt us or who we are 'indulging' our anger upon run our lives.

It is time to move on and admit that we're wrong and forget about those who have marked us so that we can begin to let God be the one with the marker....(cheesier than cheese toastie, I know...but it was meant well)
 
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A jumbly rumination   
12:17pm 24/04/2009
  Okay so now Japan wants to pay their immigrants to leave and never return to work in their country again.  Their families are not allowed to return either. 

America is being judged and countires are going to avoid making the same mistakes:  

But Mr. Kawasaki said the economic slump was a good opportunity to overhaul Japan’s immigration policy as a whole.

“We should stop letting unskilled laborers into Japan. We should make sure that even the three-K jobs are paid well, and that they are filled by Japanese,” he said. “I do not think that Japan should ever become a multiethnic society.”

He said the United States had been “a failure on the immigration front,” and cited extreme income inequalities between rich Americans and poor immigrants.

http://finance.yahoo.com/career-work/article/106964/Japan-Pays-Foreign-Workers-to-Go-Home

Isn't there a way of getting around this?  I mean America only really ran into this problem with immigrants when we began to make it so hard for people to become citizens..at least, thats one reason...
(more citizens=more taxes=no more free health care; they are on our records therefore they are are held accountable for their actions; and better yet we get a variety of people/ideas/beliefs)

We should put stipulations on becoming a citizen:  they haev to know the english lingo, they have to know the history, etc..and then provided they haven't broken the law they are welcome here.


I think what struck this all to be so wrong to me was when Dr. Kawasaki says that he doesn't think Japan should become a 'multiethnic society.' 

I'm all for traditions but I don't think pure ethnicity really means anything at all.   that people are who they are because of who they make themselves to be.  They are capable because God allows them to be.  Traditions are nice because they remind people that they believe in something..pure bloodism is for physcho Voldemort-like people.  

We are the melting pot.  We are founded on other traditions.  We are a country of choices.  We only make the wrong choice when we stray from what God has intended for us.  
 

 
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Just mulling and elaborating over a church lecture...   
02:38pm 20/04/2009
  I can't imagine anything worse than being real and available around a bunch of blind dolts. 


We are in His image.  When we are many, we are still One. 



'Hold my hand!  I will carry you if I have to.'

'I am in everything.'  ...always there...if the trees could speak they would remind you of their existence.

One out of every five people are lonely....their bodies are dying because of loneliness.

...even when your eyes can't see Him you're body dilapidates, but it is still hanging on/fighting for everything that it has to survive...



God is great!  He moves through us all.

When there is no one around, there is always someONE or something to remind us of Him.
 
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A Recall   
03:12pm 13/04/2009
  The best and worst experience was felt on Easter Sunday, at church.

The church played a short recording of the crucifixion and then the resurrection.  It was fantastically pulled off!

Jesus dies, and the world is in utter darkness!  Hope has withdrawn!  [uhhh...my heart drops about 2 cm in my chest]  A little taste of hell.

But then He arises!   Hope is painfully awakening...its extraordinarily comforting! 
 
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02:40pm 08/04/2009
 
I freaking love it!

http://content.usatoday.net/dist/custom/gci/InsidePage.aspx?cId=indystar&sParam=30502089.story&source=nletter-news
 
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